Updated: Aug 23, 2018
No heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams, because every second of the search is an encounter with God and with eternity." Paulo Coehlo
One of my dearest friends who I refer to as my spirit twin once told me...”All I ask of you is that you tap into your intuition and follow it fearlessly.” I truly believe that our intuition is our GPS in life. It’s how the Universe communicates with us and shows us the path to our highest truth. It’s always there to lead and guide us even in the most subtle ways. Throughout the day I've even noticed it with small decisions. When I get a certain urge to go to a specific restaurant or store in town usually I run into someone. Or when I feel called to change my routine for the day there’s some sort of message or guidance that I find along the way.
Often I’m in such a go mode or even survival mode that I’m just plugging throughout the day trying to mark off everything on my to do list and be where I need to be. BUT..... when I take the time to get silent and tap into my inner knowing I find magic and miracles all around me. My spirit twin and I call them FLOW DAYS and tapping into that current is profound.
Some days are anything, but Flow and life is just a struggle, but I have found that even in those times..... Our Intuition Hasn’t Gone Silent. We still have our inner compass available. I’ve found in my own life that during times of struggle is actually when my intuition is most powerful. Here’s an excerpt from my book about intuition. Once I began to listen to mine fearlessly, my life radically change and so did everything that I thought I valued.
Chapter 5: Divine Messages or Delusions?
One of the most frightening things in the world is to trust our intuition and follow that trusting. When we are one with ourselves and our process, we are one with the universe...... When we have the courage to trust our intuition, life begins to live itself.” ~ Anne Wilson Schaef
Seeking answers, I knelt in prayer nightly asking God for help and guidance. Growing up in a devout Catholic family my faith was something that had sustained me through the trials of life. I found that when I leaned on God, he always answered. Tonight he answered me in the form of snow. It was February and we hadn’t had much snow this year. The silence of the snow had always brought me the feeling of serenity. Staring out the window, gazing at the large flakes fluttering to the ground covering our yard I prayed for guidance. As I sat in silence trusting my process, I heard the message, “You will find peace again.“ Slowly exhaling as tears formed in my eyes, I felt like I could breath for the first time in a year. Then I heard the message, “Your peace lies in Oregon.” For the next several months I would continue to receive intuitive messages to travel to Oregon.
Initially, I had a hard time distinguishing if these messages were insanity in my mind and I was completely crazy or if this was actually God trying to communicate with me. Was I receiving divine messages or just delusional? At this point I was so sleep deprived and anxious about my life that it was hard to tell. As I was jolted out of my sleep for another night I flipped on the lights and went to sit at the white vanity in our guest bedroom. Staring deeply into my own eyes in the mirror I wondered, Why Oregon? I have never been to Oregon. I don’t know anyone from Oregon, and I have no friends or family in the state. It seems like such a bizarre and random place to be called. Yet here I was awake in the middle of the night being jolted out of my sleep with the desire to sell everything that I own and go there immediately.
During my separation I developed a friendship with a wildly interesting man who introduced me to Hot Yoga. I met him on New Year’s Eve just two months after my separation. My best friend from high school was conscious of my angst of spending New Year’s alone for the first time. She thought it might help take my mind off of things if she set me up on a date. Her boyfriend was best friends with the bassist of the band who was playing the New Year’s show at The Tobacco Company in downtown Richmond. I was told,"He's single and looking to mingle." When I saw Gary on stage playing behind the flashing lights, he was strikingly handsome. He was tall and toned with beautiful curly brown hair, bright green eyes, and a sheepish smile. As I watched him sway back and forth to the music strumming his guitar I thought, “He’s adorable. Perhaps I can give this mingling a try.” After the show I approached him boldly. I had nothing to lose. “Hey, I’m Kara! We are suppose to be set up tonight by Leanne and Harry. I’m newly separated and apparently you’re looking for a New Year’s date?” Blushing Gary replied, “Hahaha Yes, I’m single.”
“Well I loved the show. Do you want to come back to my place for a night cap? We have a wrap around bar the length of my basement in front of a fireplace and I can serve you most any cocktail that you desire.”
“That sounds pretty awesome.” Gary nodded as we grabbed a cab.
Walking through the basement door the pups came flying down the stairs barking wildly. I had not had another man in the house since Mark left and they seemed alarmed. “Ok, guys, this is just Gary and he’s a new friend. Easy Now.” Gary and I nestled into the couch with the fire blazing and enjoyed a few cocktails. We talked until the sun began to rise and even then continued on. The conversation flowed effortlessly and it appeared as though we would never run out of things to say. Around 10 am Gary looked at me and said, "Wow, we've been talking for seven hours straight. We should go to bed. It's mid morning.” “Wow, how did that happen?” I noted. “You’re just so easy to talk too," Gary replied. “Well Gary we have a lot in common I suppose and there’s still so much more that I want to talk to you about."
“Kara, I'm very attracted to you, but I also want to be your friend and continue these conversations,” Gary shared
I agreed and we made it a weekly habit to attend hot yoga together. Before every practice, we set an intention. This particular day, I could not get Oregon out of my mind. I had spent too many restless nights wondering about this message. During my intention as I folded my legs into the lotus position, I asked for guidance and clarity regarding the message that wouldn‘t leave me alone. I need answers God. If I am meant to go to Oregon and this is the path that I am supposed to take, please guide me; show me the way.
Walking out of the studio as Gary and I parted ways heading to our cars, my mom called. I had shared my intuitive feelings with my mom, which prompted her to call a friend who used to live in Oregon. My mom had always been an angel in my life and must have taken my messages seriously. As I answered the phone, before I could even say hello, my mom blurted out "I have great news. I just talked to John and he has a cabin in Oregon. He no longer lives in his cabin and has a house in Germany where he resides. He has invited you to stay in his cabin until you figure things out.” I fell silent on the other end of the line as tears rolled down my face. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. I was so shocked that I couldn’t even muster the words to reply. Standing in the middle of the hot parking lot in a strip mall in soaking wet in yoga clothes, I dropped my pink yoga mat to the pavement. I was stunned...........
I did follow my intuition and eventually sold everything that I owned including my house to travel to Oregon. What I found there is hard to capture in a blog. Perhaps that’s what my book is for :) I will say that I met people who radically altered my life including the father of my daughter and a reiki master who shifted the course of my career. When I found the courage to listen to my inner guidance some of my deepest dreams became reality. So today I ask of you what my spirit twin asked of me.....I ask you to...:”Tap into your intuition and follow it fearlessly.”